Friday, March 18, 2005

I have to apologize: I've once again fallen into a state of silence with this website. The thing is, I'm not even sure what I want to write about on here. This started as a mostly private site that I anonymously shared with strangers because I like writing and feel encouraged to keep writing when there's an audience out there, but don't want that audience to be close friends and family if I'm going to be sharing intimate details from my life because really, why would I want to go and do a thing like share my FEELINGS?

But, this being life and all, it's very hard to keep these things contained, and I never put much effort into it anyway. So now, five years later, the word "blog" is now everywhere (along with a slew of annoying made-up terms like "bloggers" "bloggerati" and (ugh) "blogosphere"). When I started this, it was sort of like, "Well, I have this online journaly-thing, a "personal site" and I um, update it?" I never liked the word blog, maybe because it sounds so stupid and fictional and ugly.

Anyway. The point is maybe that after all this time, I still haven't figured out what exactly this site is here for, and so I've been ignoring it mostly. And I've been tired and my life these days consists largely of work (which I won't write about at length because it's not that interesting and I'd be tempted to just write about bad things and really, it's not so bad I'd like to be fired) and watching tv, with some gym times thrown in there. I've considered writing treatises about how Girlfriends on UPN is actually one of the best shows on TV (it's like when Friends was actually funny, but with black people!), or perhaps rating all of those 1-800-OK-Cable commercials (My favorite is still the one where the guy sings to the girl "He only gets tv on satellite/I've got on demand/come over tonight/ I'm your man, ready, willing and able/ I'VE GOT CABLE!"), or I seem to go through an alarming amount of shampoo and conditioner when compared to my roommate (who has, as far as I can tell, had the same bottle of Fructis for months)--

But I'm not sure how much you really want to hear about those things. So I'm left with just a would-be blog that I post to once a month from work.