So, yeah. . .
I have a habit of doing this...thing...that takes perfectly normal, healthy, free-flowing conversation and turns it into stifled, limping along conversation. I don't mean to do it, it just...happens. Or something.
Anyway. yeah.
Just like that. I'll be going along, expressing a sentence, you'll express your sentence and there will come that natural pause—normal and healthy thing that it is—but I won't let it sit there. Oh, no. No, no, no.
There's the inhale. The pause of breath—and right there, with that very motion, I've forced myself to say something. But I have nothing to say. But that won't stop me. Out comes the, "So uhm," or, "Yeah... I don't know..." or my most recent favorite, "I'm tired..."
Though none of these things are especially great to blurt out on an repeated basis because they have a habit of making silence that was once just there turn to silence that is now awkward and overly noticeable, the last one is especially troublesome because it doesn't exactly sound like filler. It sounds like you are tired. A tired, bored, boring person.
The thing is, it's true—at least the tired part for sure (probably the boring part as well). I'm just always tired. I can never get enough sleep. I'm not sure a thing called "too much sleep" exists. Even "enough sleep." One can never get enough sleep. It just doesn't happen. Oh, sure, we've had enough to function, to make getting out of bed a more comfortable option than remaining in bed (due, largely, to our need to eat and relieve ourselves) but that's not really enough sleep, it's just functional. But underneath the surface, I'm still always tired. And when there's nothing else to say at that very moment, that little factoid often comes bubbling to the surface.
I need to make this pesky little habit end, for fear of scaring away all friends and potential more-than-friends with what would appear to be a massive case of sleep deprivation, but it's really quite hard, you see, because when you get right down to it, sometimes I just don't have a damn thing to say.
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Replies: 3
you know, the first twelve times i heard "i'm tired", i was a little concerned. but after a while... hmmm... yeah, maybe it's time to retire "i'm tired."
Posted by big fat wrong person @ 02/07/2002 10:47 PM EST
retire me? Never!
Posted by "i'm tired" @ 02/10/2002 08:50 PM EST
Try "I'm Fired". It's an easy first step, and it'll remind you to stop saying what you want to stop saying. Plus, you might laugh and wake yourself up.
Posted by Ryan @ 02/11/2002 12:30 AM EST