Sometimes I wonder what my problem is exactly. Why do I happily engage in these stupid mental games of chicken (look him in the eye until one of us looks away, smile see if there's a response) but then retreat in fear the instant it seems like it could be more than just glances exchanged between strangers?
To a degree, I like meeting new people, and I've often mused my time (and I have so much of it now—it's strange luxury to come home from class and have a whole afternoon streching out before me with no phone calls to make, no 18-to-20 inches to write, no deadlines to miss) would be better spent if there were more people in my life. I just don't know what to do with them once they're there.
And so I look away, I screen my calls, I put on an air of unavailability that I remember from high school and turn around and mope in my self-created loneliness, waiting for a phone call I don't even know if I want to get anymore (except of course, I know I do).
I'm sorry I do this. I want to believe it's just a phase, anyway. And I maintain it's not my fault.
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see, this one just looks wicked ritahded when the smiley faces pop up next to it. or the dinosaur.
Posted by shaun @ 01/17/2002 02:38 AM EST
I sort of like it that way. Makes things a little more ambiguous or something. It's not an upbeat entry, but I like the weird contrast of having a smiley face (or that constipated looking green dude) come up at random. serendipity, no? (serendipity is my favorite word. sadly, the movie sucked though. Why hast John Cusak forsaken me?) btw, to anybody who hasn't already figured out the faces change, please reload a bunch of times and explore 'em all.
Posted by caroline @ 01/17/2002 03:24 PM EST
i get many broken images.
Posted by wantwit @ 01/18/2002 01:49 AM EST
really? is this the case for anybody else? it works fine for me and my win98 combined with ie 6.0/opera 6.0/netscape 4.7 (well, some bugs, but the gist of it is generally o-k. the *images* are there anyway). uhm. if anybody else has broken pictures, do let me know.
Posted by Caroline @ 01/18/2002 02:08 AM EST
I actually have a broken image showing on IE when using a mac, it shows up fine when using a pc though.
Posted by Dave @ 01/18/2002 03:08 PM EST
I get a broken image every time. This is with IE6 on Win2000Pro.
Posted by eli @ 01/20/2002 04:48 PM EST
i use XP and IE 6 and opera and k-meleon don't construct those gifs too well.
Posted by wantwit @ 01/20/2002 05:02 PM EST
i actually sort of liked the movie serendipity...although the lead actress was pretty annoying. i actually liked john cusack's best friend...jeremy piven, i think is his name. does anyone know what other movies he's in?
Posted by mandy @ 01/20/2002 06:55 PM EST
well... I guess it's a matter of OS and all, and uhm, since I generally only have access to Win 98 machines, I don't have any good way of verifying if it's working for other people (without generally polling people), so I think I'm going to go ahead and not care much about it. :) sorry to those who can't see, but you're really not missing much and I think I'm going to redesign soon anyway.
Posted by Caroline @ 01/20/2002 09:35 PM EST
woohoo! i'm the tenth comment. do i win a prize? also, the first comment. how ironic. (not very)
Posted by shaun @ 01/21/2002 09:23 PM EST
btw, i don't get a broken image and i have windowsME and IE6.