05.03.2001:The writing's on the wall

Though the green grass and undiluted sunlight call my name, my pale (pasty, really) Irish skin has never been one for much exposure and my tolerance for heat -- 85 degree heat, that is, in very early May -- and I find myself retreating to the cool, air conditioned safety of the library.

I love reading days, even when the determination to study is tempted by beautiful weather and more free time than I've had in months. I love the peaceful anonymity found deep in the dark corners of the library. So there I was, again.

Except, apparently, many people had this plan as well.

It was crowded, to say the least. Before I knew it, I found myself on the sixth floor, seeking solace deep in the stacks which still held people. I found myself at one of only a handful of empty desks in the library -- yet still isolated and more or less out of sight, which is really how I'm best off if I have to study.

Words were read, pages were turned -- I think notes may even have been taken, but I'm not sure the words "study" or "comprehend" can quite be applied. I'm not sure.

My problem is partly that I get so easily distracted. I look up and read the comments scratched into the desktop and bookshelf nearby.

"I miss sex :("

"I miss sex and good food!"

"I miss fine girls, but we'll always have Penn...

Not exactly fasincating, or even really witty stuff (although someone had drawn a rather amusing penis cartoon to accompany the drawings) but I was bored. I continued to look for more quasi-graffiti.

"Carra and Jeff 12/12/86" and then beside it, "Are you still together? 12-10-90"

Carra (or was it Jeff?) never replied, so I suppose we'll never know. Why I care, I don't know, but I always notice when people scratch weird things like random intials and dates into places. I find myself staring, daily at the graffiti scratched into the third shower stall in the bathroom, proclaiming "Grand Master Greg, SAE, Peace out fo' tha 9-7" and "1996: Representin' on the East Coast, Maintainin' game on th' West"

You'd have to be pretty lame, I think, to include punctuation like apostrophes and to call yourself the "Grand Master Greg" in your freaking freshman dorm shower stall, but hey. Welcome to my school.

I think it's this strange, nostaglic, sentimental side in me that pays attention to things as stupid as what some kid scratched onto his shower stall wall five years ago. I don't know. I always wonder who they were and what they were thinking, and if I wrote anything, would anybody I know see it later?

Probably not, and probably anything I would think to write would be pretty lame, and nobody really wants national monuments defaced with "Caroline wuz here 6/2/00" but I don't know.

Anyway, peace out, yo.


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